Saturday, August 16, 2025

Theology course: Week 1 reflection

This was the first class, so the lecturer was giving some background on the various types of theologies such as practical theology, historical theology, biblical theology, philosophical theology, systematic theology, and analytic theology. I had no idea there were so many branches of theology! 

I think I'm most drawn to practical theology because, as the name implies, it's practical. The lecturer said it is about "understanding God by exploring how faith is lived out in the Church and daily life". I like learning stuff that I can apply and that can help me in a more concrete way. That makes it meaningful -- I can see the utility of it and then the learning feels purposeful. 

Some people like intellectual exercises and arguing about theories but I really don't see the point in that. Even when I was doing my masters in linguistics, I felt impatient with the theories about first language acquisition. They are theories for a reason: there's no real way to prove how babies pick up language and learn language. This means that it's all speculation! And what's the point of speculating when you're never going to know the actual answer? It's just a waste of time! 

Anyway, back to theology. Apart from practical theology, I think I'm interested in both biblical and historical theology as secondary choices. Biblical theology, the lecturer said, is about "understanding God by studying His Words in the Bible" and historical theology is about "understanding God by examining how the Church has understood Him throughout history, tracing how the Christian faith & Christian life has been expressed across times and cultures". The former seems like a deep dive into the Word and I'm a language kind of person, so I think I might like that, although sometimes analysing the words used and the way sentences were structured does feel a bit like majoring in the minors -- like trying too hard to read into the smallest detail. I also haven't forgotten that I'd probably have to learn Hebrew to do this with the OT and Greek to do this with the NT! 

As for historical theology, I think it would give me a glimpse of the role that culture plays out in faith and practice? I don't know if I'm getting this quite right but that's the impression I got. I think cultural context is important, especially when interpreting the Bible, but most often laymen like me don't have much, if any, knowledge of the cultural context, so that hampers our understanding of certain passages, I'm sure. 

This brings me to something the lecturer said in response to a question from one of my classmates: the question was about clashing doctrines, such as acceptance or rejection of gay church leaders (if I remember correctly). The lecturer said doctrine doesn't change, but our understanding of it or interpretation of it does. The example he gave, which I thought was brilliant, was that in the past people used to think that the sun revolved around the earth, but with the advancement of science and technology, invention of more powerful telescopes and mathematical calculations and satellites and so on, we now know that the earth revolves around the sun. However, in reality, the fact of the matter is that nothing has changed and the earth has always revolved around the sun, whether or not we've known it or acknowledged it. 

This also made me think about how humans used to think the earth is flat. A wrong thinking does not negate the truth, it just obscures the truth; so we are unable to see, grasp, or know the truth. However, what is worrying to me is that if doctrine can be misinterpreted by trained and learned people (a.k.a. theologians, seminarians, priests, and pastors) -- especially trained and learned people who are supposed to be able to discern God's truth and teach it to the masses -- then we have ajaran sesat. 

Of course, there has always been pockets of ajaran sesat here and there in the form of cults. But we recognise cults because they are extreme and also because some of their teachings are not strictly scriptural. For some issues like homosexuality, we can read for ourselves what Scripture says about that; but then along comes a bunch of trained and learned people who say that oh, that interpretation didn't take into account the historical and cultural context, and therefore it wasn't meant to be a blanket thing but specific only unto the group of people that Paul was writing to... um, how are we, the laymen, supposed to know what is the correct doctrine, if even the pastors and theologians do not know? And if the pastors and theologians lead people astray because they earnestly think their understanding of the doctrine is correct, then how???

We trust that our pastors and preachers are seeking God and are led by the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is supposed to "guide us into all truth" (Jn 16:13). But then hor, how can there be two separate truths? With two separate camps and diametrically opposed viewpoints? This is what confuses people and then we don't know what to think. Which one should we believe? 

(Although, if we go back to the example of homosexuality, then I personally tend to think that the preachers who try to explain it or excuse it from being considered a sin are probably allowing their bias to influence their reading and interpretation of Scripture; and the reason I think this is because I feel secular values such as 'inclusivity' have infiltrated some of the churches, resulting in a pressure to make people feel welcome vs. potentially offending them or causing them to feel shame; also, the belief that one's sexual orientation could be innate and therefore, being born with it, the person should not be faulted for it and God should accept them as they are, not see it as something sinful or to be fought against -- this puts pressure on church leadership to also not 'demonise' those with a different sexual orientation other than what has traditionally been accepted. My personal stance on this is that the orientation is different from the lifestyle; one may not have control over the former, but one does have control over the latter; and from Scripture I think it is possible to argue that Paul and the others refer to the lifestyle rather than the sexual orientation, by which I mean, you can't control whom you're attracted to, but you can control what you do about it.)

Now I have veered into precisely the kind of theoretical territory that I said above I do not like ::rolls eyes at self:: Conjectures and hypotheses can be interesting -- I like to understand things, to try to make sense of things, especially why people act the way they do and why they think the way they do. But in the end, this kind of stuff just lives inside your head. I don't see it as transformative or even impactful. 

Back to school... sort of

Been awhile since I last posted here. I just started a 12-week theology course (single subject, rather) and wanted to write about my experience. Remembered I have this blog and thought, why not use it? This is the course I'm taking: 



Sunday, May 28, 2023

Things that intimidate me

1. Tying a knot with monofilament
2. Tying a knot with stretchy cord 
(The above being the reason why I've never worked with either types of threading material) 
3. Wire wrapping a cabochon (still can't even get my simple loops to look perfect!)
4. Bead embroidery
5. Knotting pearls 

Friday, August 23, 2019

Bead organisation -- ever evolving

About a year ago, I was in the middle of expanding my bead storage, by which I mean transferring from existing containers to larger ones, because my stash seems to have exploded when I was not looking. I did the blues (I store by colour) and then got stalled and haven't done the rest.

Then I discovered that I'm more into bead-weaving these days, and for bead-weaving, the size of beads are important. The most-used size is 4mm but 3mm, 5mm, and 6mm are also used occasionally... And for seed beads, the most-used size is 11/0 but 15/0s are also frequently used and occasionally 8/0s are needed.

I had already stored my seed beads separately, so that was not a problem, and I had also stored 4mm Chinese glass bicones and 4mm faceted round Chinese glass crystals separately. But now I also have 4mm pearls, 4mm unfaceted round glass beads, 4mm semi-precious stone beads... and what about the 6mm? Do I store them separately by size or put them in my original containers where my beads are sorted by colour?

The other beads probably would be used for stringing or other techniques. I had stored them by colour because I figured when I try to select beads for a design and match them up with each other, I match them by colour. But within a box of dark blues, all the various shapes and sizes of beads are bagged up in little ziplock baggies to keep the different types of beads separate. So that means, when I open the box, I cannot at one glance see all the options that are available.

I liked keeping the beads in baggies because then I could just grab the bag and did not need to leave a container open on my table, taking up space; and also, I didn't have to worry about possibly accidentally jolting it and knocking a bunch of different beads into a bead soup on the floor!

But recently, I was at a friend's place and we were making earrings together. She had all her beads spread out on the table and it helped so much for me to be able to see all the options available in order to match various shapes and sizes and finishes together to create simple earrings. Now I'm rethinking my bead organisation again!! Omg!!!

Friday, July 12, 2019

When you don't know anyone else who makes jewellery

I'm excited but have no one to talk to. Ish. Because no one will understand when I say I just ordered a set of 42 colours of size 15/0 seed beads!

Thursday, January 3, 2019

Crafter's dilemma


I think I have developed an obsession with silicone moulds.

At last count, I have 44 of them, and that's with some of them lumped together into sets because they were sold in sets. If I were to really count each individual mould, I have way more than 44!



I think I'm fascinated with them because they can help me achieve resin forms which I couldn't otherwise. The latest ones which arrived in the mail (online shopping is dangerous!!!) were tiny ones to make roses 1mm in diameter, so that these roses can in turn be placed into my pendants.

I have to say that YouTube is very much to blame for all this. I'm watching the Japanese crafters -- despite not understanding a word they say -- and I'm so frustrated that they can find materials in Daiso Japan which Daiso Malaysia doesn't carry! I've taken to haunting every Daiso branch within my vicinity, and since most malls have a Daiso outlet and PJ is chock-full of malls, there are loads and loads of Daisos to haunt. It's so annoying  that some Daisos have items which others don't! Also, if Daiso were to accept credit cards, I'd probably spend much, much, MUCH more there. As it is, I feel like I'm single-handedly propping up Daiso's Malaysian empire 😂

So, YouTube. It started with me accidentally coming across a video of a Japanse crafter using UV resin, so I started researching UV resin, which led to me researching UV lights and UV lamps... then I saw a video where a lady painted her resin pendant using nail art techniques and that made me start researching nail art and gel polish (which also cures under UV light)... And then I saw a video where a lady made resin pendants using acrylic skins as a background, so I started researching acrylic pouring... one thing keeps leading to another -- it's like going down a rabbit hole!

I've always had this problem where I'm intensely curious about everything and want to try everything. Even with jewellery-making, I'm interested in stringing, simple off-loom bead-weaving, wire wrapping, macrame, crochet bracelets, wrapped leather bracelets: basically, almost everything except kumihimo and loom beading.

I say it's a problem because it means I have to get supplies for literally everything. For wireworking I have a steel block, nylon hammer, nylon jaw pliers, bail-making pliers, wire jig, wires of different gauges and metals... for bead-weaving I have Fireline beading thread, beading needles, size 11/0 and 15/0 Miyuki seed beads, 4mm Swarovski crystals... for stringing I have beading wire, crimp beads, crimping pliers, crimp covers, wire protectors or wire guardians, calottes or bead tips or clamshells (depending on what you want to call them), and all kinds of shapes and sizes of beads made of porcelain, glass, acrylic, resin, metal, wood, semi-precious stones... for crochet of course I have crochet hooks and yarns... for leather work I have leather and suede cords and cord ends. Seriously, it's madness. Madness!!! Then I also have a lot of chain in various sizes and finishes, not just to make necklaces but also because chain can be decorative, and the usual headpins, eyepins, ear wires or earring hooks, and of course jumprings and clasps -- magnetic clasps, toggle clasps, lobster claw clasps... holy guacamole.

I could make my life considerably simpler if I could just narrow my focus to one technique and do only that, but I can't seem to decide on only one. There are some things I'm interested in, like making paper beads, which I haven't tried; and some things I'm not allowing myself to get anywhere near, like metal stamping and making my own polymer clay beads and charms, because I already have enough going on and I don't need to amass even more craft materials for a completely new craft! (says she as she arranges all her shiny new silicone moulds)

Friday, December 28, 2018

Book review: A Knight in Shining Armor by Jude Deveraux (spoilers!)

The main problem with this book is not even the impossibility of time travel, the strange "bond" the hero and heroine seem to share (which has her experiencing a pain in her arm when his arm is cut), nor the concept that souls are reborn into different bodies and yet somehow still recognisable. No, the problem is with the heroine, whom no one could possibly identify with.

The idea of a misfit heroine would have been a great one -- which of us has not felt at some point in time that we don't really fit in? -- but the author exaggerated the heroine's differentness so greatly that instead of becoming a human being we could identify with, she became farcical.


Honey, what is wrong with you is that you are a dreamy idiot with little common sense. Robert treats you like sh*t yet you keep making excuses for him and insisting that you love him! And worse, plan a romantic holiday imagining that he is going to propose, continuing to believe that he's about to propose even though he does the extremely unromantic thing of telling you you're going to pay for half of the holiday, building castles in the air based on nothing more than a receipt from a jewellery store. "Oh, it must definitely be an engagement ring!" Oh my God, I rolled my eyes SO HARD. Everything she believed about her current relationship existed only in her head, and she couldn't see it.

In the afterword, Jude Deveraux said, "I wanted a heroine who was strong but believed herself to be weak, who was generous, the kind who'd help another human even if it caused her hardship, yet thought her generous spirit was a weakness." But Dougless (also I hate that name, I don't care how historically accurate it is) doesn't come across as strong at all. She comes across as a doormat and desperado. First of all, she's always the one making moves and throwing herself at Nicholas, and when she doesn't want to do something, all he has to do is kiss her fingers and she capitulates. Second, she cries and cries throughout the book. In fact, it's her tears which first draw Nicholas to her through time, because she's crying so hard that it disturbs his concentration and he decides to follow the sound of the weeping and ends up in her time!

I also found it difficult to stomach or understand Robert's behavior towards her, and then to have him do a 180-degree turn at the end? It was ridiculous. He behaved more like a child than his own child, Gloria. He was mean and calculative and unappreciative and his dumb explanation at the end didn't make any sense to me. So what if you were envious of her rich family? You knew when you met her that she doesn't have access to their millions, so what is this about "play at living on your teacher's salary"? It was dumb and petty and showed that he never really loved her, yet he has come back to propose? It made no sense. I felt that the author just wanted to tie everything up with a nice little bow and "redeem" Robert and Gloria because she'd made them so unlikeable in the beginning. Why does everyone have to end up being all sweetness and light? Just leave them as the spiteful and petty people they were, that's fine!

Three other things that made no sense: If Nicholas had insisted that he be buried with the piece of lace embroidered with Dougless' name, why wouldn't he have also insisted that he be buried with her miniature? How could his family not be aware of the significance of the lady in the miniature, and therefore keep it instead of allowing it to be sold, for it to turn up in an antique shop somewhere? Second, if all traces of the person's visit to that time vanished, how can one or two things remain? The miniature shouldn't even remain, as the painter ought to have no memory of even meeting Dougless or having her sit for him; likewise the lace ought not to have remained, for Honoria also wouldn't have remembered her, much less remembered her name. Third, James couldn't have inherited the Stafford estates because he was illegitimate!!

I had to read this book for a book discussion, but I hated the heroine so much that I did something I never do -- once I got an idea of what was going on, I would skip 500 locations (since I read it on Kindle, there are no page numbers), read a little to see what was going on and if I'd missed anything fundamental to the plot, then skip 500 locations again. I couldn't have gotten through it otherwise. It is supposed to be a classic tale, but I would give one out of five stars! It failed me as a romance because at no point during the story was I rooting for Nicholas and Dougless to have a happy ending together.